Author Archives: NIKAOS, JOR & LMP


Life is hard, and change is inevitable. Sometimes it is welcomed, and other times it is overwhelming. As a child abuse survivor who has struggled with mental illness such as anxiety, PTSD, ADD, OCD, addictions and mountains of self-worth issues, I now find myself resilient, empowered and filled with gratitude most days. But that doesn't come easy or natural. It takes intentionality. It takes faith. It takes patient endurance. It takes incredible amounts of self-awareness, honesty, humility, and courage to make choices that are the polar opposite of how you feel. It takes vision and determination, hope and healing. I'm glad you stopped by my blog, I hope you found something of use as I transparently share my journey with others, the highs and the lows, the wisdom and the blunders, in the hopes that my mess becomes a message of hope, encouragement, and strength for even one person. .

Beautiful Outlaw Series

Book Study July-October 2018 As we continue to press into the heart and mind of Jesus Christ through the writings of John Eldredge we are discovering he again is leading us deep into biblical truth. And as is true to … Continue reading

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Wild At Heart Intro Series 2018

New Season Starts February 8, 2018 A new season is upon us brothers. As we take this time to refresh with the original Wild at Heart boot camp material we step into it with new expectations. Not only will God … Continue reading

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Repost: What Kind Of Soil Am I

Hey brothers, only 1 week left in our study of Waking the Dead. Hard to believe we took nearly a year to unpack the material. It has touched my soul deeply and the implications reach far and wide as I … Continue reading

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Because Quick Little Prayers Won’t Do It Anymore

we can lose connection with our Head (Col. 2:19) This is not a loss of Salvation, but a loss of that intimate connection to the Vine through which we receive his life! Continue reading

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No Condemnation for Those…

…In Christ Jesus.  Amen? Amen! One of the Enemy’s greatest weapons is to feed us performance based lies so that we take ourselves out of the game with self-condemnation and shame. We are less likely to pray for our wives, … Continue reading

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Spiritual Warfare

Isaiah 51:1-2 Wake up, wake up, O Zion! Clothe yourself with strength. Put on your beautiful clothes, O holy city of Jerusalem, for unclean and godless people will enter your gates no longer. 2 Rise from the dust, O Jerusalem. … Continue reading

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Repost: The Cost of Discipleship

For those of you who made the Locker Room October 7th you were treated to Pastor Michael bringin the heat. His heart for pressing into the hard battles and facing our own fears, weakness and brokkenness is a powerful message. … Continue reading

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